Should I or Shoudn't?

I received an email from "that particular university", but I have to wait for the offer letter of the scholarship first. So, should I reject the offer?huhuhuhu...:(

Understanding and to be understood

Aslmualaikum.

Happy fasting to everyone. Today is the 4th day of Ramadhan which means our 4th day of fasting. Rewards from Allah during this month is unlimited, let's grab all the rewards by doing good deeds to others, read the Quran more often than before, don't forget to go to Solat Terawih, and Tahajjud as well. I'm not saying that we only can do all these ibadah during Ramadhan, of course we have to maintain our Iman all the time, even we have to increase our level of Iman everytime. I'm trying to say that Ramadhan gives us more opportunity to inculcate our Iman because the rewards are more than doubled and this is not the usual month for the Muslim community. So, let's muhasabah ourselves during this blessing month.

Well, back to the main topic. UNDERSTANDING AND TO BE UNDERSTOOD. Both give us different meanings but they must come together. Obviously, I'm referring to the relationship. Not just husband and wife, but friendship as well. Life as a "university teacher" is not as simple as people can say. Most of their time will be spent in campus. Unlike the "school teacher", if there is no extra class, no curricular activities, they can go home as early as 1.00 PM everyday. So, what qualities must the teachers have? Facing the students everyday, the staffs, even the outsiders. What do you expect? I have more than 100 students per semester to be handled. Do you expect for me to ignore them and just enter the class for teaching? no time for jokes? no time to listen to their problems? no time to reply their calls or messages? Students are our priority. We have to treat them as our siblings, or if we are much older than them, we have to treat them as our kids, they still need guidance from us. Someone told me, don't too LAYAN the students. I'm not, i know the boundaries between me and the students. I have to create the gap. That's the rule. Ahh, I forgot. Understanding and to be understood must supported by TRUST too. If you don't trust he or she, how can you understand her or his career? nature of their career? Sorry for being emotional this early morning. Forgive me ALLAH.

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne.

Ramadhan is around the corner ^_^

Aslmualaikum.
I can't believe Sya'aban is coming to an end, which means, Ramadhan is on its way either this Friday or Saturday! ^_^ I'm so excited to wait for Ramadhan <3

My schedule, hectic as always. IELTS Preparation, Classes, Meetings, Tests, all in one. I hope I can  handle all these stuffs well.

I don't have much to say but I really hope, I can achieve all my dreams. As Tan Sri Tony Fernandes said yesterday during his visit to my workplace, Nothing is impossible, Be ambitious, Ignore the people who laugh at you. Yes, I should quote his words for my inspiration. Thank you for your inspiring speech Tan Sri.

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne^_^

It's weekend already...

Aslmualaikum...

Time flies so fast until i realized that today is Saturday already,in the second week of July. Next week all the Muslims will be celebrating the fasting month. For me, I've been waiting for the Ramadhan to come every year. ALLAH had made this month so special to us the Muslims. Honestly I'm not excited for the Syawal or Hari Raya, I only anxiously waiting for this holy month, RAMADHAN. I hope I can do my best to grab the thousands of REWARDS from ALLAH...

Currently I'm waiting for the offers from our local universities to continue my studies. I really hope that I can further my studies THIS YEAR. ^_^

Despite all the things happen in my life, I feel so blessed by ALLAH when HE gives more opportunity and space for me to improved. Thank you ALLAH for your guidance all this time. And Thank you ALLAH for giving me such a lovely family and friends. I hope this will last forever till jannah.

Thank you for reading. Have a blessed day ahead.

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne^_^

Toothache =_=

Aslmualaikum.

I'm suffering a toothache now. Just now, I calculated my teeth (silly me.hahahah). When I finished calculating my beloved teeth, I'm flabbergasted! You know why? Currently I have only 31 teethes! (Well, I supposed to have 32 teeth already because I'm mature enough.haha) So that means I'm suffering this toothache because of one growing teeth. huhuhu...It makes me feel awkward when talking...:'(

So now, what's the thing I want to highlight here? It's definitely not related with the title actually. Well, you know I've mentioned before that my weakness is to put a TITLE for anything, even a THESIS. hahaha (I should overcome this problem myself). I just want to tell you that I had already registered for my IELTS exam which dated on:

10th August 2012 (Friday)     : Speaking Test
11th August 2012 (Saturday) : Writing Test

YA ALLAH, Please help to get the best result for my IELTS. Aamiin...

So, now, I have to prepare and must struggling to get the flying colors result.

I'm confused now. I'm in a great dilemma. Should I go overseas or just continue my studies here? Only ALLAH knows what's the best for me.

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne^_^

Post-Interview

Aslmualaikum.

I don't really know whether I can get the scholarship or not. I think I can't handle my interview very well and I can say that my interview yesterday was sucks.(Sorry for the bad word). But, after I get out from the interview room, I feel like I wanna crying. I wait for a moment and then I drove to my office. I smsed my boss, saying that I could not answer well for my interview and the interviewer might had succeeded in his provocative manner. He asked me what happen to my first attempt in applying the scholarship? I was like...WHAT? You are the one who interviewed me at that time and you gave me the HOPE, and then you ask me what happen? Instead, he asked me back, "Did I interviewed YOU? OH MY...I feel like wanna faint in front of the interview panels. I don't know whether this is the way you make me speak, the way you wanna know my answer, or the way you want to know my respond. But I don't think it is nice for a professional interviewer to make the interviewee hurts by unexpected and ridiculous questions. Bureaucracy. He also asked me, why I should go to overseas when I can finished my studies here. Should I ask him the same thing? If you want to be respected, stop torturing your subordinates. You are my big boss, I know. but please, don't misuse what you have now. You might happy now for hurting others but you'll never know what will happen in the future when you step down from your "THRONE".

Behind all the things happen, I positively think that everything happen will come out with hikmah that we'll never know. ALLAH knows the BEST for us. He might not give you what you want, But HE will grant you what you NEED. Even though I feel so hurt and so ashamed of myself in front of them, I feel relief at last, when my boss (Dr.I) promised to help me and fight for me. Thank you boss, you are the best. But, still, I will accept any decision from the top management. Now, I have to focus on my TUGAS HAKIKI, sharing my knowledge and information to the BUMIPUTERAS with a sincere heart. Despite some bad words from my friends, I will took it positively and I believe everything happen for a reason. Don't let the others devastated our dream.

So, what is my plan now? While waiting for the scholarship, I will be enrolled either UMS or UM or if my luck is by my side, I hope one of the Australian Universities will accept my application. I will send my IELTS application form and doing my passport thingy this weekend.

Yours sincerely,

Roxanne^_^

Tomorrow is the day!

Aslmualaikum.

I'm scared to death now. I don't want to push myself not to scared because, I really SCARED now. I called my boss, his voice is also scary and seems don't want to cooperate or give me a "good-luck" wish. Well, never mind. Maybe he is so stress. I understand. I send a text message to my former lecturer. No reply until now. Seems like ALLAH wants me to perform myself without hoping for people's help. Ya ALLAH, please give me guidance, and please ease the session tomorrow. I'm really scared to death. Literally, I don't really sure what's scares me the most. Maybe this is just a normal feeling if we've been called for an interview. So, I ask myself, What is my preparation for this? Can i achieve the target? I'm afraid I might disappoint my boss.

I've been trying to register online for my IELTS exam.but still, it is not available for Sabah's branch. So I guess I have to go to the British Council myself to send my application.

I'm still waiting for IDP Education to mail me regarding my further studies to Curtin University of Technology, Australia.

How I wish, luck is always by my side. I don't want be like the last year's story.

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne ^_^

Finally...

Aslmualaikum to all of you out there ^_^

It's been a few weeks since my last entry here. I really want to write here but I don't have any idea to share and I'm so busy since the semester begins last month.

So, the first thing I want to update here is my INTERVIEW FOR THE SCHOLARSHIP. Finally, after waiting for a few months, I'd received a call from the admin saying that I will be interviewed this THURSDAY, 5th JULY 2012, at 8.30am. Fuhh...of course I can't hide my happiness because I've been waiting for this but apart from that, I am so worried because I will be interviewed not only by our Rector (or previously mentioned as Director), but also by our faculty dean! I was like...OHHHH MY....OHHH...Our dean, who is all the way from Shah Alam will be interviewing me!

I'm so surprised, or should I say, I'm FLABBERGASTED. I don't think I have an enough time to prepare for the interview because I have to focus on my tugas HAKIKI or my real duty/responsibility. I'll just pray to ALLAH, to ease the interview session. I can't make any mistakes during the interview if I really want to be sponsored. ALLAH, Please help me...:(

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne ^__^