Post-Interview

Aslmualaikum.

I don't really know whether I can get the scholarship or not. I think I can't handle my interview very well and I can say that my interview yesterday was sucks.(Sorry for the bad word). But, after I get out from the interview room, I feel like I wanna crying. I wait for a moment and then I drove to my office. I smsed my boss, saying that I could not answer well for my interview and the interviewer might had succeeded in his provocative manner. He asked me what happen to my first attempt in applying the scholarship? I was like...WHAT? You are the one who interviewed me at that time and you gave me the HOPE, and then you ask me what happen? Instead, he asked me back, "Did I interviewed YOU? OH MY...I feel like wanna faint in front of the interview panels. I don't know whether this is the way you make me speak, the way you wanna know my answer, or the way you want to know my respond. But I don't think it is nice for a professional interviewer to make the interviewee hurts by unexpected and ridiculous questions. Bureaucracy. He also asked me, why I should go to overseas when I can finished my studies here. Should I ask him the same thing? If you want to be respected, stop torturing your subordinates. You are my big boss, I know. but please, don't misuse what you have now. You might happy now for hurting others but you'll never know what will happen in the future when you step down from your "THRONE".

Behind all the things happen, I positively think that everything happen will come out with hikmah that we'll never know. ALLAH knows the BEST for us. He might not give you what you want, But HE will grant you what you NEED. Even though I feel so hurt and so ashamed of myself in front of them, I feel relief at last, when my boss (Dr.I) promised to help me and fight for me. Thank you boss, you are the best. But, still, I will accept any decision from the top management. Now, I have to focus on my TUGAS HAKIKI, sharing my knowledge and information to the BUMIPUTERAS with a sincere heart. Despite some bad words from my friends, I will took it positively and I believe everything happen for a reason. Don't let the others devastated our dream.

So, what is my plan now? While waiting for the scholarship, I will be enrolled either UMS or UM or if my luck is by my side, I hope one of the Australian Universities will accept my application. I will send my IELTS application form and doing my passport thingy this weekend.

Yours sincerely,

Roxanne^_^

Tomorrow is the day!

Aslmualaikum.

I'm scared to death now. I don't want to push myself not to scared because, I really SCARED now. I called my boss, his voice is also scary and seems don't want to cooperate or give me a "good-luck" wish. Well, never mind. Maybe he is so stress. I understand. I send a text message to my former lecturer. No reply until now. Seems like ALLAH wants me to perform myself without hoping for people's help. Ya ALLAH, please give me guidance, and please ease the session tomorrow. I'm really scared to death. Literally, I don't really sure what's scares me the most. Maybe this is just a normal feeling if we've been called for an interview. So, I ask myself, What is my preparation for this? Can i achieve the target? I'm afraid I might disappoint my boss.

I've been trying to register online for my IELTS exam.but still, it is not available for Sabah's branch. So I guess I have to go to the British Council myself to send my application.

I'm still waiting for IDP Education to mail me regarding my further studies to Curtin University of Technology, Australia.

How I wish, luck is always by my side. I don't want be like the last year's story.

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne ^_^

Finally...

Aslmualaikum to all of you out there ^_^

It's been a few weeks since my last entry here. I really want to write here but I don't have any idea to share and I'm so busy since the semester begins last month.

So, the first thing I want to update here is my INTERVIEW FOR THE SCHOLARSHIP. Finally, after waiting for a few months, I'd received a call from the admin saying that I will be interviewed this THURSDAY, 5th JULY 2012, at 8.30am. Fuhh...of course I can't hide my happiness because I've been waiting for this but apart from that, I am so worried because I will be interviewed not only by our Rector (or previously mentioned as Director), but also by our faculty dean! I was like...OHHHH MY....OHHH...Our dean, who is all the way from Shah Alam will be interviewing me!

I'm so surprised, or should I say, I'm FLABBERGASTED. I don't think I have an enough time to prepare for the interview because I have to focus on my tugas HAKIKI or my real duty/responsibility. I'll just pray to ALLAH, to ease the interview session. I can't make any mistakes during the interview if I really want to be sponsored. ALLAH, Please help me...:(

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne ^__^

The hectic week continues...

Aslmualaikum to all of the readers out there....:)

Well, this week is the 2nd week for the new semester. I'm stress already.haha. I don't intend to insult my students but I don't know, maybe this batch is more hyperactive than the previous semester. All I can do is, adding my patience level. If not, I possibly would turn into a HULK (woman version).haha

Hmm.my latest further studies story:
The interview for the scholarship will be on this coming July. I'm not so sure if I can be enrolled for the September intake. Perhaps... If I couldn't manage to be enrolled this year, I guess, it could be next year. I'm just waiting for the offer now.=_= (I'm tired of waiting!)

So, for this semester I'll teach the same subjects since 2010, which are the Macroeconomics and Microeconomics. I don't know whether my students understand my teachings or not, I'm always asking them, but of course you know that they are afraid to tell me the truth. I hope I can improve my way of teaching so that the knowledge I've shared can be applied anytime even they are already graduating (hopefully). Though it's impossible, but I said to myself, don't lose hope. Remember to be a teacher, we have to be sincere, meaning to say that we teach not because we want to be remembered, but we want the knowledge can be implemented from one generation to another. That's the way we say that the teaching or sharing is succeed.:) (RAMBLING)

I think that's all for today, take care you there :)

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne ^_^

What a hectic week ~~~

Aslmualaikum to all of the readers :)

Well, today is Friday finally, which means this is the end of the first week for the new semester. Hmm...a little bit busy with lecturing and other stuffs which "cut-off" my intention to write here. So far, I can say that all of my students are OK la. Although some of their attitude can turned me into a dragon (Nightfury perhaps.haha). I don't know how to handle actually when facing a student which can boost your temperature more than 100 degrees. I hope ALLAH will helps me, guides me to be patient. I know, this is the most common things when you become a lecturer or a teacher. After all, giving knowledge to them is the most priority.

I think that's all for today. Gotta lot of things to do to prepare for the lecture.

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne ^_^

New Semester Begins ~~~

Aslmualaikum...
Well, I think I had found a perfect entry title for this time. haha.
Today is Saturday and I supposed to rest at home, watching TV, or shopping, movies and so on. But, in reality, now, I'm here, stuck in my beloved office during the weekend. I want to prepare for this upcoming new semester (Monday, 11th June). As usual, I have to update my notes, my tutorials, my assignments, planning for the test date and the like. Alhamdulillaah, I managed to clean up my office before new semester. This is because, I know, when the semester begins, my office will be full of papers LOL.
I want to plan for my financial this month (I know this is obvious :P). I already planned for the past few years,since the moment I started working here, but you know, there are so much for me to deliberate, so until now, I don't have any steady savings or investment. I think I want to invest my money this year, so that I will plan for my future studies. Besides that, I want to plan for my future family.:)
I just met my boss just now in his office. He is such a workaholic guy I've ever met. haha.Don't fire me boss.:P I told him that I already called the admin for the scholarship interview. I guess I have to book for the IELTS first, to know the result, then I can decide which university I should go to.
I have learned that we cannot run from choosing, deciding and taking the best decision/choice for us. And normally we have to forgone another choice which might be also good for us. But this is LIFE. I can relate LIFE with my field in ECONOMICS.haha. Let me tell you, there are 3 basic economics concept we should know, though we already know but we never expect that those concepts are related to economics. Those are SCARCITY, which means limited (referring to the resources which are always can't cope with the continuously increase in demand from the consumers),CHOICE which means we have to make a choice because of the scarcity. OPPORTUNITY COST, which means we have to forgone the alternative choices to make a better choice. Isn't it related? If you can't understand what I mean, emm...do read my entry again.just kidding.haha
Okey, It's time to struggle for the battle next week. I pray to ALLAH, May I have the Istiqamah in my daily life. I hope, I will be more improved this semester, after teaching for almost 3 years, Amiin.

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne^__^

Time is ticking

Aslmualaikum to all the readers out there ^_^

I hope all of you are doing fine. Life has been much more stressful than before right. So as me. Next week, I will be teaching again after a long holiday for my students. I'm not joining them for the holiday, I just take a break from teaching for almost 2 months. A lot of things happen and plenty of tasks to do during the time.
Well, talking about myself (of course myself, not the "other self"-kidding), I keep waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting outside the lines...(eh?) haha. I'm still waiting for the interview, now is already the middle of 2012, I think I have to postpone my further studies plan again to next year. I REALLY DO NOT WANT TO, but since there is no news regarding the scholarship yet, I guess I have to wait until February next year. BUT, there is a but. If the admin want to interview me, before September, I know, I have to further here, in Malaysia. Actually I don't care where I should placed myself to further, but time is ticking you know. I'm not young anymore. I'm reaching 30's. I don't want to waste my time WAITING. I hope ALLAH will grants my wish to further THIS YEAR, Amiin.
Now, I'm on my way to make my office tidy and clean. I put all the papers in files, each of the file will represents many categories, such as QUESTION BANKS, TEACHING FILE, COURSE FILE, and the other files. I feel so relief now after filing all the documents. Your life will me more stressful if your office always in a mess (LIKE ME!)
I have a plan to buy something to decorate my office. Just a simple decoration which can makes me always want to work.haha.just kidding.
You know what, besides all of the postponements stories, I'd received such a wonderful news from him :). So, I'm waiting for the next year. Stay tune ya! :p

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne ^_^

After Holiday

Aslmualaikum :)
I know, my entry sounds "hanging" or hovering.haha. but this is my problem, i always failed to give an entry a very good title, or an excellent title.haha

I just want to express that the most stressful thing after a holiday is your "undone tasks". I don't know what is the most ideal term for that thing.haha. Yesterday I already done my duty to help the admin for the registration of the new students. And today, it's time to focus on my "real duty" or TUGAS HAKIKI. I have so many things to prepare especially for the upcoming new semester in 11th of June. I have to update my slides, my notes, the attendance slips/sheets, and the like. Besides, I have some unsolved business regarding my further studies. Now, I feel my head is spinning and I know, my migraine is entertaining my head and my brain.*___*

I really hope that I can solved all these things one by one. I have to give my brain a break.

Wslmualaikum.
Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne^__^

Never-Ending-Stress

Aslmualaikum...

I don't know why I love to start typing an entry with the "Salam",but i feel my entry will be incomplete without the "Salam".hehe. That does not mean I am such a pious girl (I'm trying to be, InsyaALLAH).

Well, talk about my entry title, The Never-Ending-Stress. I'm sure most of people around the world feel the stress.EVERYDAY. It is impossible for us to have a No-Stress-Day nowadays. Along with the globalization era, Life seems so hard, finding jobs become more difficult, we have to run chasing the globalization, if we don't, we'll be left behind. So, what makes me write the title like that? I have experienced so many challenges in life, difficulties, obstacles and the like. When we talk about my current situation, I'm always having problem to make a decision. This is one of my weaknesses. I can't decide which is the best for me. I need someone who can give me advise whenever I'm in the middle of choices. Maybe my past experiences already taught me a lot about life...I remember someone told me, Life is all about making choices. Straight to the point, I have to choose where I should continue my studies. And the most difficult thing is, my decision will be based on the admin's decision. If the interview is within this month, it's too late for me to continue to Aussie as their universities will be open this coming July. But if they want me to continue in Malaysia, I know where I should be. One of my problem is, as i mentioned in my previous entry, I don't know when I should sit for my IELTS exam. This study thingy makes me feel so stress! and sometimes I feel like I can't handle this situation anymore. But I have faith in ALLAH, I believe ALLAH wants me to learn on how to handle a difficult situation (Well, you might be think this situation is not as hard as your situation, but there is another dilemma I have to handle together with this challenge.) I have to think who should pay my monthly car payment, or should I sell my car? How about my family's spending during my study time?
I really think I have to come out with a solution which can benefit all parties (me, family, career).
Tomorrow I will be coming to UiTM to watch and observe the registration for the new students. So, I guess I have to go to bed now. Good night all. Have a nice sleep.

Wasalamualaikum.
Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne ^__^

My holiday ^__*

Aslmualaikum to all of the readers...^___^

Hmm...I left this blog for a few days, and guess what? I really miss to write here. But the thing I don't like the most, when I don't visit this blog, a lot of ideas gyrated in my mind, but when i already open and log on to this beloved blog, all the ideas seems to runaway from me.haha (I'm not sure whether you understand or not) (",)Y

Today is already the first day of June! I still can't believe the time flies so fast and we are already in the middle of 2012. I hope I can further my studies THIS YEAR. again, THIS YEAR. I pray to ALLAH, I want to ask for HIS PERMISSION to give me the opportunity to continue my studies (anywhere whether in Malaysia or overseas). Most of my friends already knew my intention to go to Aussie. Well, it's not solely my intention, but i had mentioned before that this is my boss's suggestion. I'm afraid I will disappoint him but I have faith in ALLAH. ALLAH knows what's the best for me. :)

I spend my time watching movies with my family and today actually I want to go to my office, but suddenly, I cancelled my plan.haha.So I just sit down, resting, pampering myself and now, I'm sitting here writing for this blog.

I'm so worried now. I'm afraid I will disappoint my bos :'( I can't sit for the IELTS this coming June. and the admin has not calling me yet for the interview arrangement. Aduh...What should I do now? ALLAH...Please give me guidance...:'(

Wassalamualaikum...

Yours sincerely,

Roxanne ^_^