Monday, December 31, 2012

Exam Mode is On

Aslmualaikum and hello to everybody. Today I'll officially announce that the Exam Mode is already activated and anything which are not related to exam will be ignored.lol

Actually, my exam will be start on 9th January and 11th January. but i haven't studied much yet. huhu

So, it's time for me to revise all the chapters and keep praying for the best. Help me ALLAH...:(

Until then, c ya.

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne!

Friday, December 14, 2012

Handling stress

Aslmualaikum.
Well, I'm not a motivator like Dato' Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah.haha. Just want to share here, that sometimes I can't handle my stressfulness. I think that's because of me myself. Why? I'm the one who created the stress. Why? (Why again.haha), My biggest weakness in myself is I always procrastinate. I hate procrastinate! But, in the end, I'm the one who did it.

Why I'm saying all of these? Well, that's because now I'm stuck in the middle of career and study.
I have a few tasks that need to be done by the end of this year, and the beginning of the new semester.
For study matters, I have TWO presentations which I haven't done anything about it yet. No preparations at all. The presentation will be held next week on Monday and Tuesday. I just got back from Shah Alam to attend a workshop and I don't have time to think about the assignments. But, it is my fault actually because the lecturers already gave me all the assignments at the early semester (September). See? I don't want to to this but, yet I'm the one who procrastinate a lot. Watching anime, mingle around, doing other things, attending weddings, and so on. Sometimes I'm also stuck between my family and my career+ study.

For me, it is a sign from ALLAH that I should remember HIM more because ALLAH will not give the challenge if HE does not love me as HIS servant. I should do more Tahajjud, Recite Al-Quran, and do the worshiping things more than before. Forgive me ALLAH for always doing LAGHA things. I really want to repent.....T_T(Suddenly sad and want to cry).... ALLAH, please guide me through  your path....

I think that's all for now..Thanks for reading....





Roxanne ^_^

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

It is the end of 2012

Aslmualaikum...

Again, I left my blog again due to some obstacles which I couldn't resist. There's so much I want to say here, but I'm not a person who can write spontaneously. I have to arrange my ideas properly so that the readers can understand what I'm trying to say. If not, I feel I'm just talking crap here.haha...Kidding.

Career

I've been almost three years here teaching and sometimes I feel I don't belong here. I couldn't catch up and sometimes demotivated. I don't know what happen to me, but I'm trying to fix it. I can't be like this. I have to be strong, thinking about my family,as I'm the breadwinner of the family. 
I have to accept whatever tasks given to me and do the best for those tasks. Next week, I'll be fly to KL, for a Workshop. 2 days. 2 days mean I have to postpone the lecture class and replace it. What a busy semester for me. The Diploma has just started and I don't feel like I'm ready again for struggling to finish the lecture, to finish the chapters. But, I'm praying to ALLAH, to give me strength. ALLAH....Please help me...

Study

I'm currently studying while working. Part time. I tell you, once you decide to study while working, the challenges are very different than when you are a full time student. Sometimes I'm just like living in a two world. Teaching. Studying. When the sun rises, I'm a teacher. When the sun sets down, I'm a student. I know, most of the people manage to finish their studies even they can face the hardest situation within the career and study. Well, actually the reason why I decide to study as a part time is because, our top management cannot let me go to Aussie. We a re in a short of lecturers teaching economics here. My teaching hours also above the maximum level. Luckily I can claim the overtime. With assignments, tasks, I'm saying to myself, that I can do this. Most of my friends manage to finish this.


I'm just stuck within two paths here. Not because I'm weak, maybe I'll just need to boost myself and pray harder to ALLAH to give me more strength to face all the obstacles and challenges.


Will write again. Gosh I need to brush up my writings again.I need to finish my Mini Research or Mini Thesis Assignment, and prepare for my Proposal.

Yours Sincerely,

Roxanne ^_^